Back in January my favorite mom blogger, Elizabeth Ivie, wrote what might be her last(?) blog post. I used to read her posts every day. I adored her and her son and her experiences made me feel better about my own and her struggles made me want to cheer for her and her success made me proud. When she stopped blogging, I felt a little betrayed. I know, it's selfish, but I was mad that she was shutting out everyone who had supported her. I actually thought that I knew her and could stay in her life through the internet. But facebook, blogging, twitter - whatever - it's not friendship when you are just reading or watching from a computer screen. Likes and comments don't count as conversation. She is living her life and she still has her friends.
When I started my new job I got too busy to take the time to write posts, collect and format pictures, and definitely not time to design something new. It's more than the new job though. Emmy is getting older and she is even more involved in our lives. We spend our evenings cooking together, talking about our days, coloring and cuddling on the couch. She gets most of our attention and after she goes to bed, Joe and I try to give each other some attention. Or, we cherish some alone time (for me - A BOOK!).
Things are so good but sometimes I worry that I'm going to forget too much. Sometimes the only way I can find my memories is by seeing them in a picture or reading about them in a post. So, I want to keep this blog up and take a little bit better care of it. I have no idea who is reading this (if anyone is reading this!) but if nothing else, I'll have a small piece of our lives out there... maybe even forever preserved in some format and at some point Emmy will be able to read this and watch herself grow up in a way that most people never can.
